Travis Tritt is a country music legend, don’t get me wrong, but I feel like Cassadee couldn’t really go for the notes because she had to stay on his level. She could have done so much better on her own, but instead I could tell she was REALLY holding back.
I thought that as I got older, I would gain all of this knowledge and wisdom about life, but I feel the opposite. The more years that pass and the more I see, the less I feel like I know. My entire life until I was 20 was based on the small towns I had grown up in. When I went to New York, I got to see that there is a completely different universe out there. It gave me some clarity on the immensity of the world, but it also made me question my place in it. I’m still not quite sure of where I belong.
If I’ve learned anything, it’s not where you are in life, but who your company is. Luckily, I’ve been able to make some lasting relationships in my out-of-state endeavors, but I always felt that I had left a big piece of my heart in Tennessee. Being separated from my twin was and still is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Even now, we are going to separate colleges. She’s built up a life with her boyfriend, and I’m afraid she’ll follow him wherever he goes. I want her happiness, but I also want her around. I’ve never felt that I need anyone, but I need Meagan. I don’t think I’d make it in this world without her.
But at the same time, we have completely different agendas. I want to go out and see the world, and she wants to get a job and settle down. It’s very frustrating to be the only one in my entire family with the desire to travel and to live in other places. I still want to do all of these things, but I don’t really see the point if I have to go at it alone. I told Meagan that we should just drop everything after we graduate college and move out west for a while. We’ll see if that happens in a year or two!
I think it would be awesome to do that with her. It would be an adventure unlike any I’ve been on so far. I want to take risks, and I want to do illogical things because…well because I can. Life is short and I don’t understand why it is ingrained in our brains to always play it safe. I’ve played it safe most of my life, but the best things have happened to me when I step out of my comfort zone. I want a chance to go rogue again for a while.
I want to study abroad, even though I really can’t afford it. I want to live in Europe and breathe the air of a different continent. I want to submerge myself in another culture and soak in the beauty of it. I don’t want to be stuck here forever. I look at many of the people I graduated with, who already have kids that know they want to stay in this tiny town for the rest of forever. I’m not saying that’s bad, but that’s not me. Don’t get me wrong, I eventually want to settle down, but I also want my glory days. And I don’t mean cheering for the high school football team. I want to say I experienced the world and have a greater appreciation for it because I did.
We’ve been taught that we are all separate. Different continents, different countries, different governments, strictly defined borders, etc. But at the end of the day, we’re all revolving around the sun together. I’m probably sounding like an erratic Utopian right now, but it’s the truth. We’re all in this together. If I’ve learned anything from moving around so much these past few years, it’s that this world is full of people who just want to feel loved and important. I want that myself. I’m totally getting off on a tangent here, but my point is that life is so short! Why on earth would you live it a certain way just because that’s how most people do it?
I want to live my life in a way that the majority will look at and be inspired by. I don’t have everything figured out. Shit, I have hardly anything figured out, but I am so excited to learn and to grow and to come into my own in this great big world.
what's your favorite meal of the day?
Every meal of the day. I just love food. But I will say, the whole breakfast for dinner concept weirds me out. I had a friend growing up whose family had eggs and bacon like every other night for dinner. I’m not about all that lol
to everyone with finals and exams and big projects due very very soon and haven’t started anything yet